Accepting 2015

Here we are…the end of another year. 2014.  Ups, downs, lefts, rights. Sharp turns and u turns and detours and long tours. Sunny days and moonlight nights and blizzards and thunderstorms. There wasn’t enough time to do everything I wanted or needed yet I found myself wasting time at times.  And now, were at a milestone time…the end of a year. The 365^th and final day of 2014.

This is a time to pause and reflect and reset and renew and take inventory and set a direction. To gas up. Check the tires, the brakes, the fluids. Reset the GPS. Chart a new course if you want, or keep on moving down the same road.

We pause, but time doesn’t. It keeps moving, flowing, marching, passing by, driving. 

I stopped making New Year’s Resolutions a long time ago. I actually don’t remember, but I think it was 16 years ago that I made my final resolution, which was to stop making resolutions.  My thought process was that “resolutions” should occur all year and be flexible and fluid and to put any significance on one day wasn’t necessary. Or something like that. 

 

Well, I’m going to break that resolution this year. I’m going to make a resolution...well, two. My first resolution is to be accepting. My second resolution is to make that my permanent resolution.

 

And yes, I’m leaving it open-ended, intentionally. I need to be accepting of my past, and my present. I need to be accepting of my flaws, my idiosyncrasies, my uniqueness. I need to be accepting of the fact that many times, I don’t fit in. I’m different. I’m varied.   I need to accept that there is no one out there quite like me, and sometimes that’s a good thing, and sometimes that’s a tough thing…though there are a small few that are close. I have my great moments, and my not-so-great moments, and some bad moments. I need to accept all of that. I need to accept where I am in my journey, literally and figuratively. I need to accept that nothing is rock solid and I need to accept that sometimes I can do it all on my own, and sometimes I can’t. I need to accept that some people are wonderful and some people aren’t, and sometimes I can’t tell. I need to accept that there can be many perspectives and angles. I need to accept when I can have control, and take it, and when I don’t have control, and let it go. I need to accept that I haven’t listed all of the possible aspects of this concept of acceptance…but I will add that acceptance doesn’t exclude change. I need to accept change. I need to accept that sometimes I need to make changes. I need to accept that change is inevitable. I need to accept that change can’t occur unless acceptance has happened…….

A couple of weeks ago, I write a post of 100 or so statements about myself. I hadn’t planned to do that list; it just kind of happened. And I hadn’t planned on posting it to this blog, but I did. And I didn’t plan on it leading to this new resolution, until right now.  But with acceptance comes awareness, and with awareness, hopefully it leads to new avenues of acceptance…

…and so, with that, I’m off to continue into 2015, wherever the journey may take me. And for those of you who have been part of my journey, I thank you for accepting me and helping me be aware of what life has to offer.